Saturday, November 28, 2009

They Came Back

Wednesday that day

Fong,Jackie,Ming and 1 more[forget him name]

they came back by that day to work

then Jackie ask me

still have with ah hong together

then i answer of course no la

then i saw Ming face

very cute la him

keep to smile with me

very happy that

they came back to work

at least there

i still have people to chat about before things

just that all

By Peik Chin

Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
10:46 PM

Friday, November 27, 2009

Sorry Is Not So Big

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。
晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。
”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起”。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。
可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。
他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。
”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
——“对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。
女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。
”这场冷战持续了很久。
终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。
后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”
于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。
——“对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。
女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。
以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”
——“对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。
从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”
女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。
——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。
女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方,她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。
终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……
女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人****的男人。
那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。
可女孩，转身离开了。
男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。
女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”
可女孩，始终没有听见。
——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。
男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。
这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。
“我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些日子你应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。
我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。
我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。
”男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。
——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

By Jenny Wong Peik Chin[B3e bE3]

Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
1:42 PM

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

So Touch

So touched lo

before that

my father wont to do like that 1

dont know why

friday night that day

i finish my work

then straight away go to church practice

dont have go back home eat dinner

so that

he call me and ask me need to bring food to me

i heard it want to cry out already lo

then monday that day

when finish my work

rainning

then i think

is rain oh

then my parents dont have open stall at pasar malam lo

so that i call my father and ask him have open or not

if no

come and fetch me

when i call

he answer

then ask me it is reach already

then i blur awhile

ask him

where are you now

then he said

at LRT station already

i heard it

very touch lo

i dont think he will at there wait for me

this two day nights

is give me so touch lo

By Peik Chin

Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
2:22 PM

Direct My Brother

13-11-2009

that day

is my 1st day to start my work

that day

my brother have follow me together go to work

then that supervisor

i dont know what happen to her

she around 11.30am just came out

then 1st she call name

then we need go there to take the card

she call finish

then go to my brother there

then ask aunty call my brother go to wrap hamper

ok lo

actually my brother just stick the under hamper paper

then call my brother go to wrap hamper

then my brother come and sit at beside me

my left handside

then i teach him to wrap lo

then aunty come and stand at my right handside to talk to me

then i keep wrap my hamper and talk to aunty

my brother see me how to wrap

then the supervisor came and scold my brother

scold him

"people talking dont so 8 can

dont keep to see people talk what

can concentrate to wrap hamper"

then i see my brother so 'mou gu'

suddenly scold by her

because my brother not see me and hear me talk what with aunty

he just see me how to wrap the hamper

then scold by her said him 8

ok lo

then my brother said nevermind ma

then nothing lo

just awhile only

the supervisor come again

stand at my behing see my brother wrap hamper

then very unlucky

because my brother not yet really know how to wrap ma

then give her scold again

because my brother wrap that hamper 1 side too long 1 side too short

then she scold my brother

"why cut my paper so short

i said how many time dont cut my paper so short

why tou still cut my paper so short"

then i see my brother lo

i see it is

my brother no cut la

just 1 side too long 1 side too short only ma

where got cut

then i help my brother defecation it lo

then she still need to scold my brother

scold he until now also havent know how to wrap

then my brother dont have choi her

keep to wrap the hamper

then wrap finish that hamper

he find another hamper to wrap lo

then beside him no hamper

just my right handside got hamper

so i take it to him lo

then she shout

EAT LUNCH

ok lo

we go and eat

eat finish come back

we start again our work lo

wrap ah wrap ah

wrap finish that hamper

we need to start wrap another hamper

so we at there wait

then the supervisor see it

call my brother do another thing

call my brother go to cut the red filar

that thing is too hard to cut

my brother cut that thing

cut until he hand peel

then 7pm

end work

that day we take LRT go back to cempaka there

then call wen cheong come and fetch us

because that day i need go to church practice for our song item

then my brother go back by himself

then i straight away go to church

when i reach church for awhile

my father call me and ask me need to eat dinner or not

then i answer sure la

very hungry la

then he ask me need to bring food to me

that is sure la

if not

i go back eat meh

then he take the food to me

so touch lo

then i eat finish

practice until half

aunty call to me

said

aunty:tomorrow ask your brother no need go to work

me:why

aunty:may jie said 1

me:why may jie said like that

aunty:may jie said him it is have sick??why 'face green mouth lip white'
then said your bother take the hamper also dont have power
need you to help him take

me:he where got sick oh???he is like that 1 la
he where got no power oh??is the hamper at my right handside
i just help him take only la
i think oh,that may jie is direct my brother la

aunty:yalo yalo,your brother stick the under hamper paper good 1
then suddenly call your brother go to wrap hamper
then suddenly call your brother go to cut red filar

me:yala,then how???tomorrow

aunty:ask your brother dont come again lo

me:if my brother dont have work,i also cant to work

aunty:why

me:my mother dont let me take bus by myself,she scare

aunty:then tomorrow you all dont come 1st la,see that may jie got what thing to said

me:oh.ok

so that

i saturday dont have go

because that may jie keep to direct my brother

i dislike her deep deep

now make me need to go back home by myself again

By Jenny Wong Peik Chin

Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
1:38 PM

Less Online+Working

I will less online from now on

because i have need to work

from 8am-7pm

work for 1o hours

1 hours eat lunch

then 7am i need to take bus or LRT go to work already

reach there i around 7.45am

then 1pm-2pm is lunch time

then 7pm end work

but if i take bus will reach home by around 8.30pm

if take LRT will reach home by 7.30pm

but i also need to see my friends and follow them

then Tuesday and Thursday i will go to Ampang's Pasar Malam to help my mother

then she will give me RM5 only *sob sob*

i work 1 hour also have RM5

i go there help her until close stall just got RM5

is not fair lo

but who ask her is my mother

nevermind la

then i work 1 day have RM50

then she will give me 1 day RM10 for my eat and transport

then i also need to give my mother half of my money

so that 1 day i just have RM35

give my mother RM 15

By Jenny Wong Peik Chin

Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
1:14 PM

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Dont Have My Permission

Today morning

when i wake up

i found my handphone

but

lost jor

i think

got ghost take my phone gone

then i think

this is impossible ah

then i remenber 1 thing

1 day

when midnight

he take my phone dont have my permission

take my phone for what

SMS to him friend

when i check my phone

i just know it

he dont have ask me

then himslef come and take to SMS

but i dont have ask him

but now

he do again

yesterday night

he come and tell me him handphone spoil already

ask me ask my parents go to service

when i ask him why spoil jor

him tell me

cant to start the phone

then him take it go to knock at the table

make the whole phone 'sot' jor

then i said

go tell to parents by himself

then

he 'fak pei hei' go back to him room

then i close laptop go and sleep

take my phone put at my beside

when i wake up by this morning

i found my phone

why my phone lost jor

then i remenber last time he do the thing

so i go to him room find my phone

really at there

then i take it out lo

when i open see

why all thing gone jor

then see other thing again

give me see something is

the contact there all not my friend phone number

then i go and check the phone number

is not my phone number

is him 1

i see it very angry lo

he think he phone spoil jor

then my phone is him meh

i really angry it lo

dont have my permission

take by himself

change SIM card by himself

then make my phone all things gone

whatever la

he sure will scold by my parents

because i tell to my parents already

By B3e bE3

Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
3:40 PM

Angry

I very angry you lo

what you said now

why you must like that

you think your english very pro meh

i ask my friend go to Carnival

then you broke this

you said what to them

you think i dont know meh

you think they really will help you

please think before what you want to said

you know them come and ask me

when i heard it

i really want go to your class slap you lo

when you tell them Carnival is not 义卖会

then they come my class tell me dont want go to Carnival already

when i ask them what happen

is you

you tell what to them

you tell to them

i ask them go to Carnival is give money to my group

then just can play our group's games only

they heard it

very scare lo

scare just can play our group's games only

they scare until dont want to come already

then you have said 1 again

if they want go

must follow you

you think you really 'dai ga jie' meh

dont give me 1 day slap you '9 9'

By Peik Chin aka Jenny

Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
3:30 PM

Dont Lie Me Anymore

You

ya

is you

i saying you

hope that you wont to lie me anymore

why i said to like that

because

i always ask you it is chatting with 'her'

but you answer me no

you really dont know leh

why i know you lie me

because is 'her' tell to me

then i ask her it is everyday

she said yes

but i always ask you it is chat with her

but you always answer me 'NO'

you know or not

when i know you lie me that time

i very hurt lo

we 1 month friend also havent enough

but you lie me so much

i really dont wanna be friend with you already lo

but

GOD teach us must always forgive and forget

so thats why

i dont have do dont wanna be friend with you

because i know

GOD forgive us

then we must forgive other

so

thats why i got talk with you

if not

i dont have answer your question

dont have talk to you

By Jenny

Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
3:22 PM

Saturday, November 28, 2009

They Came Back

Friday, November 27, 2009

Sorry Is Not So Big

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

So Touch

Direct My Brother

Less Online+Working

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Dont Have My Permission

Angry

Dont Lie Me Anymore

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